At certain times of the year I used to get very "down" and couldn't understand why.
My abortion was something I never talked about, it was a secret.
After 15 years the wall of denial started cracking and I confided in someone. A few years later I met, by chance, a woman who was a volunteer in a pregnancy crisis centre in Derby.
Moving out of the dark place
She sent me a leaflet about pregnancy crisis centres and I got help from the nearest centre which, back then, was in Basingstoke. With the help of a lovely lady there I worked through the book "A Season to Heal". It was such a relief to discover that the things I had experienced weren't unique to me, they had a name, "Post Abortion Stress". Part of this stress is "Anniversary Dates" such as conception, discovering being pregnant and thinking about abortion, the abortion date and the time the baby would have been due. Talking about an abortion experience can help on it's own. Working through some of the issues and pains can be a key to moving out of the dark place.Editor's Comment
Thank you for letting us know how you received help and healing. I am so glad that you have realised where your pain was coming from and that you found out about the network of pregnancy support centres across the country. I hope that your story will give other women the courage to seek help find a centre for post abortion support in your area.